excellence can be attained
if you dream more than others think is practical;
expect more than others think is possible.
Friday, July 29, 2005
I received the news yesterday night. I'm so damn freaking shocked. Everything just happened too sudden. xoxo Thursday, July 21, 2005 xoxo Saturday, July 16, 2005 xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo Wednesday, July 13, 2005 xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo Monday, July 11, 2005 xoxo Sunday, July 10, 2005 xoxo Friday, July 08, 2005 xoxo Thursday, July 07, 2005 xoxo Wednesday, July 06, 2005 xoxo Tuesday, July 05, 2005 xoxo Friday, July 01, 2005 xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo xoxo
By the way, I heard Sulaiman telling Ms Lim about opening a Judo Club in Zhonghua! Zhonghua! Did you hear that? hahaha. hopefully that stupid THP can approve their proposal and accept NYJC to be ZHSS feder school! That would be so cool lo! Why didn't they suggest it earlier?! Oh gosh! Really hope TPH can sit down and think about this carefully instead of using the funds to put some stupid flower pots around the school... *crossing my fingers*
Devica was asking us whether we miss them and jes and me were like "OF COURSE!" haha.
Ta men (tsktsk) were really nice and guided us a lot through the trainings. Wo men (hehe) of course will miss them lo!
Haix! Don't know when can see ta men playing with their gi on again...
Not like wo men right jes? hehe! Realise wo men and ta men got a lot in common. Better don't comment much later jes got lots of stuff to add again. haha.
jes: hey i just realise the tune that you went " ta men ta men ta men ta... men.." was actually the school song for zhonghua! hahaha! I knew that when I reached home lo!
Talking about the last training for J2s... do you ever realise that people always leave when you are just about to get to know them better? *sobx*
haix! I'ld definitely miss them a lot. Although we'd spent a very short time training together, but we guys really had taught us a lot. Really. Unlike other CCAs senior who are also so dao, you guys are a fun-loving bunch.
All the guidiance I needed during the trainings and the competition were really very precious. I really feel very fortuante to be able to be part of the team with you people. It's once in a lifetime right? hehe. Although I'm the only J1 in the team but I didn't feel left out at all. The encouragement and support you guys had given had helped me to pull through it. Thanks.
Trainings would have lesser judokas now. Agree with Jasmine- things wouldn't be the same without you guys. You are the ones we would look up to when we can't execute the throws beside the coaches...
Although you guys had officially handover to us but do come if you people are free to alrigtht? Especially after your As! By the way, hope you all like the dog tags! =)
Had my A levels Oral on Thursday too. My face went red and hands were cold at one point lo! Shit! I can't believe what had happened lo! Oh my gosh. I would just hope that everything was ok with the examiners and I could get my distinction. I don't want to re-take my Chinese AO like what had happened for my Os alright! (Although it had nothing to do with my oral grades)
The year is coming to an end. Oh, before I forget to mention it, Cheryl's leaving for Japan soon too. It surprise me when I knew that. Ahhhh!!! Why must everyone leave? J2 are leaving, he's leaving now cheryl's leaving too! Gosh! She's leaving in September by the way. Another shock cause I thought it is in November that she's going off. *sob sob sob* Must treasure the trainings we are going to have now...
NYJC Judo! 
J1 girls + coaches
J2 girls + me + coaches and teachers
devica, lixin and me
team at the prize presentation..
Finally got my trophies too! But surprisingly, wasn't as happy and excited as that day we won. Agree that that moment really was unforgetable. hehe. Took lots of photos lo. Tommorrow taking more with judogi on. haha.
Went with them to but uncle su and aunty cheryl's gift. hehe. Shall keep my mouth shut for now. It's cute la! tsktsk!
Everyone! =) (haha! wads lixin doing?! =p)
nice formation...tsktks
Team NYJC + auntie cheryl!
team + cheryl + trophies!
nice trophy! =) hehe
another one...
Tommorrow's the prize presentation! hehe! Can get my medals already and I can't wait to get the hold of it. it's my first judo medals mahx! In other words, I would be ponning school again! Erm, no need to stay in school for so long especially on a tuesday is fun (release at 5.10pm) but the thought of having to skip lessons again made me kind of feel bad. What the heck! Get my medals first then say la! tsktsk~ There's no training today. Kind of sian. Valmond tried to ask for it but got rejected due to the upcoming promos and stuff. But it seemed so insufficient! Haix! Will see what we could do on thursday training lo...
Can't help but smile and laugh to myself today. I'm not nuts alright! But everytime I thought of that incident I would just react that way. hehe. Never know that side of him until then. Got a glimpse of his promos reuslt for chemistry. Got E or a D I think...
Aiyar! I must mug more already...
Congrates girls! You had done the Zone; the school and yourselves proud! I still can't belive it! We won Dunman High! They are like the champion always but you beat them! You girls had made history! Really! Zone 5 had never gotten Champion in National level before whatsmore for a corp! I wish I could rush down to hug all of you but I'm having this stupid stomache the whole day long that's damn irritating. I don't know if you all are lucky or what seriously. I'm pretty worried for you all yesterday still cause you girls had only trained for 3 DAYS for this competition! 3 DAYS! Dunman are you hearing this! 3 DAYS! If they know that I think they would jump off the building man! haha! I guess it's all the training for the inter-corp that helps a lot. All the late trainings had drilled you people.
Nanyang would be damn freaking jealous! You'd trashed them hard. Real hard! *woot*
Shalln't comment more already. Didn't train you girls at all. hehe. Must thank Jenny lo! She'd put in a lot of effort for you girls.
Another history that is created this week...
The first match was against VJC- the 1st balt of the day. At first I really thought I would be playing against the Shuqing. Haha, the one who I pulled her hair lo! She had 5 RUBBERBANDS on her hair today lo! *peng* I was laughing at it lo. Hehe. So I really thought it was her I was going to play with. Thinking of all the different attacks and ways I could counter her. She’s pretty hiong and siao la. She just would come directly and chiong at you when the game starts. I was a little bit scared of her at first la. Don’t like people to chiong at me like some siao cha bo. It was until both teams lined up then I realized that it was Dawn we I am playing with! *woot* Better still. I’m so damn full of confidence la truthfully. She’s much easier to tackle than the Shuqing. She did play though but in the Open category. In another words, she was against Wenqi. So it started and everyone is really nervous and excited about that match.
Device won; Lixin won; Qiuxuan won; I won; wenqi won! *WOOT* 5-0! Oh man! I was so damn happy when qiuxuan won le lo. Because there’s like 3 straight wins and it means a confirmed to the next match. But I never wanted to lose to someone I had beaten and I know I can beat. So yup, got through it. So happy for Wenqi lo! Her opponent is a dinosaur compared to her small and petite size. But still she can win her! Of course la, mine senior lehx!
So it was against CJC after that. Finally managed to play with CJC judokas. That’s the other school I wanted to play with other than HCI (never played with them before). That match determines whether we would be going onto the finals on Tuesday. Everyone was very nervous. At least I was. But every one of us really wanted to win. Wanted to create history and go to the finals on Tuesday. Really. I really wanted to make it big and let them know NY Judo is good. But I guess that kind of overwhelmed me and make up lost my focus. Devica and Lixin won the match. We were so damn excited and happy cause 1 more win and finals here we come. Qiuxuan’s nose bled halfway cause she knocked onto the person head then she also didn’t manage to win in the end. For me- I sucks to the core. Could you believe it, 7 seconds and I got kana Ippon. What the fuck. I was like what the freaking shit was I doing. I thought it was a wazari but ended an ippon. Damn. I was really upset and angry with myself. I cried after that. I really thought I can stay on even if I lost I could stay on for the full 3 minutes or something like that. But I was shit then. Wenqi played really good match. Could see that she kept trying for her attacks. But we lost by a 2-3. I cried not because we lost. I cried because I think I really didn’t perform up to my standard at all. I don’t know what I was doing. Why the shit did I follow her? Why?! I could do a backfall but I didn’t. I could learn to flip my body but I didn’t. But Cheryl told us that there’s still another match to go and we could win. This time I really didn’t want to let go of it already.
The RJCian played with VJCian and as I predicted RJC won. Vicky Lai again. The one I lost to during the individual. I was thinking of how to counter her and stuff. Got kind of scared and nervous at first cause she’s pretty skillful compared to me. Brown belt one. But I don’t want to lose the RJC. Cheryl came and helped us to strategize. She wanted me and Wenqi to swap places. That means I would be in the Open Category against the yellow belt fellow. That boosted me up quite a bit. She taught and told us some of the pointer so take notes and stuff. Surprisingly, the nervousness wasn’t that much compared to the CJC one. I guessed I was more focus and know who I was against that calmed me down a bit. Did some last minutes practice and there we went. Last match of the day…
Devica won. Lixin lost. Qiuxuan won. Wenqi lost. (Ooops! wrote wongly. change le! tsktsk) I was nervous when she lost but the feeling is still pretty good in me. I can just feel the difference between that match and CJC match. As predicted, she used a lot of osoto gari. Counter her quite a bit, pushed her to the ground and wanted to do my ne-waza and stuff but failed to. Got mate. Damn. There’s this time when I slammed her down and really thought it been an ippon lo. I was like ‘please…’ but ended up to be only a wazawi. Nevermind. At least I got the first lead. I got shido later on not because I pulled her hair but I think it’s because of my holding. Not sure on that need to ask Cheryl about it. Heard them telling me to relax and wait. So followed them a while later after I registered the instructions la. She hold on to my leg suddenly. I wanted to shake it off initially but got mate. The referee gave her a shido. Oh so it’s not right to do so. Then after hajime, she did the same thing again. I was like what the hell do you want to do it again when you already got a shido for it just now?! Like what the shit is she doing? No dount another shido- 2 shidos. 1 more and she would be out of the game. Heard her coach tell her not to do that again but go for osoto gari. Tried to counter she fell I think but don’t know if points were award. She attacked some more but could see she’s pretty desperate. Siam and siam la. Luckily didn’t follow her. Heard them saying relax and stuff like that because the time is almost up. Finally, it ended! Heard them screaming! I was so relieved because my hands were trembling already. Yae! We won! 3-2! Yippee!
I was so damn happy la. We won lo! Won- Third! I cried again. Haha. So happy lo. Everyone was happy. I’m so proud of us. *beaming* At least we never let ourselves down at the last match. Yippee!
Went down to Hougang Mall Pizza Hut to celebrate. Bills are on Coach Tan though. Haha! It’s so nice of him even when he couldn’t make it down to support us. Ordered quite a lot of stuff and the place was like empty at first lo! So fun! Knew a lot of stuff from the J2s. So funny. Think the Daryl’s one is so funny lo! Haha. Can’t believe he actually did that! Hahaha. It was a very nice and full dinner. Hopped to Cheryl’s house after that with Devica, Lixin, Eileen and Jeslin. Saw her trophies and medals that were all over her room. I was “wow!” by them. She told us quite a lot on her life and all the judo trainings that she had gone through while we flipped her many photo albums. She many photos lo. Her judo life is really very interesting and meaningful. Didn’t know all that stuff about her one lo.
To the team:
I’m really really really very proud of us today lo! We won RJC and of course trashed VJC! We are great. Third lehx! That’s a bronze medal lo! Not everyone has a chance to get that in their life even if they are a judoka. We had done played a good game for the school, for the coaches, for the club and of course, most importantly, for ourselves. I’m really honored to be part of the team and able to play this match with all of you. Great job! =)
Hehe. I know it’s just a simple encouragement bur I’m really happy that he’s there to share my defeat. Wwweee! =) And jes, stop it! haha
Very tired now. Competition had finally come to an end for now. I should and would focus on my studies now. No more sucky results and the bullbull is going to make a comeback again. Make all of them know that I’m awake and will mug for it!
Jia you!
We were so excited when we knew that we could be excused from lessons to go and watch their match lo! Jasmine and I were like screaming when we knew! hahaha. That's us! Because at first the teachers couldn't exactly make up their mind if we could be excused. Anyway, got a couple of the other J1s to come along too: Valmond, Di Hua, Ricky, Jasmine, Jacqualine, Jeslin, Rebecca and me. Took a cab down as we were quite late already thanks to Valmond and his lunch. -_-" But when we arrived, they told us the J2s had played already and lost to CJC. They were the first to play lo. But in other to play agian, CJC had to win RJC at the next balt. For once, we were so happy when CJC won lo! hahaha. Cheryl and Jeremy were also like cheering for CJ. hahaha. And yup, CJC won; 4 vs 1. That's very pro pf them.
Could see that the guys were very happy to be able to play again. It's another chance. I really think they had put in their best in that match. Daryl was unable to play; he got injured I think so Ben took over him. Ben lasted for the whole match until the 3 minutes was up. Danny injured his knee but still continued. Phil Jin kept going for his throws and never give up. Wei Wu was stuggling realy hard though his opponent is like damn BIG in size. Yen Sun, can see he wanted to chiong during for the last one but he got hit on the floor a few minutes later after the game started. He got sort of knocked out for a while. Moreover the stupid ri guy put his crutches there and he kind of knocked onto it too. So many injuries. They were sad and disappointed. But I don't think they are losers. Winners in fact. They had put in their best right?
Tommorrow's the girls' turn. My stomach was aching just now when I watched them play. Ya again. Sucks. We would be the first to play tommorrow and the first match is going to be agaisnt VJC. Must win! Wonder if they sending the shu qing or not. What if they find themselves a 80+kg girl? =S But I really want to win VJC cause if we win them then we could play against CJC. One of the best jc in terms of judo. I never really see any heavy weight girls playing for CJC during the idividual. I really want to play with them. But first must chiong for the VJC match. Crash them down! Can right? Arggg!!! Stomachache again... *peng* I guess I had t sit on the toilet bowl again and think about everything again. My thinking chair. Ya, weird lcation of the 'chair'. hehe.
Sucky day today too. Got back most of the results already except for Chemistry (cause I havn't ask melissa they all), Chinese and GP. My grade sucks to the core. Damn. I know is my fault. I have no one to blame cause I wasn't really prepared at all for this exam at all. Imagaine the day before the paper then you start to chiong for you econs and biology and you math and chemistry is nowhere here nor there. how could you possibly do well? Unless a miricle happends. A BIG one that is. And it's impossible. Promos is 2 and 1/2 months away and I really want to chiong for it; mug for it; get the best out of it. I want to have my Os mentality back in me again. The endless hours of mugging and the great sense of satisfaction after finishing every piece of papers and questions. I want that feeling again. Really. I'm really AWAKE now. No more slacky qinqi the chioning bullbull is coming back to live again! *woot*
But for now, my every heart and soul would be on tommorrow competition...
Jia you Jia you Jia you! =)
The aching still continues though... -_-"
Really like today's the friendster/ straits times horoscope thingy:
Dreams are nothing if not entirely possible now, as your antennae are no doubt telling you. Don't stop yourself from imagining what might be. If you can see yourself doing it, it's well within your grasp.
Guess it does reflects the situation I'm in now...
Haix! Unable to go down to support them this time round cause school is starting tommorrow too. Why can't they just let us off and support them? Sian.
Sucks. That means all the shitty results would be back. Somemore tommorrow would be a damn long day with tutorial throughout! How great is that. Zzzz. Just pray hard that the results wouldn't be that bad...
So tired now but must still chiong my EOM. Sucky tks. I bet she's going to nag at us again when she sees us. Our PW is like dead. Sian.
Arggg!!! I want more time to mug; to rest; to play...
I think that sometimes, I love her so much that the love had turn to hate for that instant. She just had this damn traditional mindset and she can't accept anything that's too open for her. I just hate it when she always compare her time with mine and make all those judgements. Com'on it's like the 21st century already. That's why sometimes I rather keep everything to myself than to confie in her. I know that I'm wrong but I still carry on with it. Doesn't she knows why? Sucks!
Sometimes it really terrify me if I would be like her when I grew up to be a mother. My child would be so afraid in confiding in me with his/her problems and stuff. I really admire those caucasion who are able to speak their mind out so freely without any barriers. Their parents would always give them the best supprt and encouragement no matter what.
Made the cards for the J2 early in the morning today. Ended up only valmond, ricky, jacqueline, jeslin and me turned up and out dear captain was late though he was the one who set the meeting time @ 9am. *peng* Hope they like the cards lo. Today's training not too bad la but got seperated from the other J1 due to the upcoming Team competition. Really hope both the teams can do well. Jia you!
Must take care...
I was like having stomachache the whole night till a fell asleep yesterday. Damn nervous lo! Then when I woke up, the feeling starts again. It’s quite irritating lo. Got up like 5.45am today cause I went back to Zhonghua for the SJAB Day mahx.
When I got there then I knew that NCC Day also today! *peng* Choy was telling me they might have it ont Thursday instead one lo! Don't know what happen. Anyway, The whole parade square had to be splitted into 2 for the 2 Uniform Groups. Though it's the first time we shared the parade square but I don't like it. Obviously right! Who would want to share your day with some ulu green colour people. hehe.
Clever me that I remember to bring along my camera today. So yippee! I ended up being the photographer for SJAB. No need to sedia, no need to salute no need to follow commmand! hahaha! So of course I went around to take photos most of the time la! Must make up for leisure camp since I can't be the photographer then. tsktks! You can scroll down to see some of the pictures. Everything that is taken is in my yahoo! photos which can be linked from here. Too bad, there's no chance to take the whole corp photo which is like a so traditional thing every year. Thanks to someone man! Kao! Sad for them.
Had like a damn long meeting with ben then calvin after the whole parade. Dicuss a lot of SJAB stuff. Haix. I just prefer Calvin's way of holding meeting lo. More effective compared to Ben. Though Calvin is as usually the pysco type one. hahaha! My stomache cant stop still then. Sucks.
It so reminds me of the time I went back to take my Os result.
Headed to Hougang Secondary after the meeting straight. The battlefield. Much more people are there today compared to yesterday. Probably because there's more girls' schools. What really puzzle me is that, where are all the other male judokas?! Gone lo! You mean the other JCs differntiate themselves so clearly one mere? Weird. *shrug*
So I was damn gan chiong la. Jes and me are like the first 2 nyjcian people there. Then went for the weighing when the j2 came. Devica is like over her weight limit lo! kao! Everyone was so worried for her lo. Then the person suggested her to go run around in the hot sun with her gi to lose the water lo. In the end, *ahem* with some help, she was qualified for it. Thank god man! haha! Checked the belt and I'm like the first to play amoung the others. Stress la. So worried that the first round already got kicked out. Kai Jia, mel and elton had also gone down to support me. Thanks guys! =)
The first match was against a vjcian white belt. Dawn I think. hehe. Boost my moral a little when I saw here. evil me. But that's true mahx. Won by a ne-waza. hehe! Damn excited lo! Cause that's the first round and I managed to finish it. Got a scratched on the right side of the neck in the end. But I'm still gan chiong lo...
Second match was against a rjcia, vicky lai. Won't forget. Lost to her by 2 yoko. I don't know what I was thinking then lo. My mind like metal block and I just cant think of any throws except o-goshi. Haix. Sulaiman said I was stiff and I agreed. So tense lo. kept hearing him shouting "GRAB & THROW!" Really wanted to do that but just keep missing it. I was so fustrated then. Cause that vicky lai isn't that big size lo!
Then had another try. With another vjcian this time for third placing already. That's pretty fast. Shuqian or aomething like that I think. Orange belt one. She damn hiong lo! Hajimi already immediately CHIONG over one lo. Scared me a little at first. I was like 'Wow!' up there la. That match was the roughest amoung all the others. I was at ground then and Iwanted to grab her gi but her hair was damn long and irritating to I like ended up grabing her hair and gi lo! I think she's like damn fustrated too. haha. Got a shido for it. Wanted to do a osoto gari but failed. O goshi also like halfway halfway like that. In the end, a ne-waza again. Hoho! I just love the feeling of lying on her totally man! She's like "Ah....~ Ah....~" I was actually wondering if I got her her knee or something but of course I just continue with my hold lo! In the end then I realise, it's me that my knee got a contusion (blue-black).
hehe! I manged to pass through. *beaming*
The devica, lixin, qiuxuan and wenqi also played well. There's this match where deivca finish her opponent off damn fast lo. Think 5 seconds or so. BAM! She won! hahaah! Qiu xuan also! She lifeted her opponent up lo! Dont know what's that throw but very nice! So cool lo! So in the end, devica, lixin and me all got bronze for the light, middle and heavy weight category.
Actually, I really think I damn lucky lo. Cause other then the rjcian, both of my opponents are also quite new. So I'm not like at a disadvantage compared to the guys. Don't know why the guys all so pro-ed one. *sigh*
No matter what, there's still 1 more team competition to go next Thursday. Let's jia you and chiong all the way! =)
not at least 1.75m not very tanned no big eyes but that's what had drawn me...
Ironic me...
Parade Commander; Tie Xuan
School Commander; Jackie
Flag Bearer & Escort; Eliza & See Hwee
Flag Hoisters; Bellina & Pearlyn.
standing smartly...
Mingxian with Year 2 and 3
Aik Hong with Year 1
the parade...
not a common sight to see ncc with sjab together taking photos wor!
jenny with the sjab day speech...
just see the number of badges!
nice picture right! =) *proud*
tie xuan, eliza and see hwee
casing of flag...