Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Just had another argument with her and it sucks to the core. I can't stand it the way she judge at certain issues. I really wish that she could like put herself in my shoes and see how things is really going. It really sucks. I always told myself that she was once my age and should know what I'm going through now but always the answer is no, she doesn't. I really want her to be able to share my joy and happiness with but she just seemed so busy that I would just forget about it. Pherhaps the 2 of us aren't very open in trashing things out. And when we do, it always lead to an argument.
I think that sometimes, I love her so much that the love had turn to hate for that instant. She just had this damn traditional mindset and she can't accept anything that's too open for her. I just hate it when she always compare her time with mine and make all those judgements. Com'on it's like the 21st century already. That's why sometimes I rather keep everything to myself than to confie in her. I know that I'm wrong but I still carry on with it. Doesn't she knows why? Sucks!
Sometimes it really terrify me if I would be like her when I grew up to be a mother. My child would be so afraid in confiding in me with his/her problems and stuff. I really admire those caucasion who are able to speak their mind out so freely without any barriers. Their parents would always give them the best supprt and encouragement no matter what.
Made the cards for the J2 early in the morning today. Ended up only valmond, ricky, jacqueline, jeslin and me turned up and out dear captain was late though he was the one who set the meeting time @ 9am. *peng* Hope they like the cards lo. Today's training not too bad la but got seperated from the other J1 due to the upcoming Team competition. Really hope both the teams can do well. Jia you!
Must take care...
xoxo
