Thursday, April 06, 2006

Thanks mom =)

My mom's real great. Pherhaps because she herself used to be a sportswoman and she knows how I feel right now.

I'd just finished talking to that freaking fbb1 on the phone with my mom. Got to see him and fbb2 tomorrow straight after assembly to clarify stuff...

I'm just feel that I'm super cheated and yes, disappointed. I've been looking forward for this 2nd chance to meet Nicola on the dojo again and waiting for my first and last Age Group Championship when everything came to a FULL STOP today. Fuck.

I'm mentally and physically prepared already but now I got to seat on the audience chair and watch the whole fucking competition without a chance to participate?! This is worst than losing a medal. At least you tried your best when you're on the dojo but I haven't even got a CHANCE! Damn. I'm so freaking angry!

Whatmore, I wasn't even freaking informed about my weight category till Monday when things weren't right! He said he smsed me but where the heck are those fucking smses? Shit! Why can't he just call me with his bloody phone? Sucks.

Speaking truthfully, I do mind not taking part in the competition but what makes me more sad is that I feel cheated. Like bloody cheated.

I doubt I got any chance to get into the competition even after the talk with him tonight and tomorrow. This is crap. Curse him.

Girls: You people must really work hard alright. I guess missing this competition makes me even want to get Champion for National School(Team) Event. Yes. Champion. You're eyes are perfect. But I can't do this alone. We need to work as ONE. As a TEAM. I know we lack experience but believe me, miricles DO HAPPEN. We must have faith in ourselves. Be the first to make History in Nanyang. And I want to do it with you girls together =)

xoxo