Saturday, June 24, 2006

I'm currently half-stonning while I'm typing this entry today. I still can't believe what I'd seen from the conversation with him (still on-going though). Totally in shock at the moment. This is like the 2nd time he totally shcoked me out of the blue. And it gets worse everytime.
Boo hoo hoo! Boo hoo hoo!

Oh God! Please let it be the 15th and please let whatever needs to be delay to be delayed. I understand the opportunities and stuff that can be opened to him through this trip but just a few days later wouldn't matter much right? Afterall he had also admitted that we are his fruits of labour in a way or another and really wants to see us out there.

I know that you guys must be thinking what the shit I'm blabbering in this entry. Things will be made clear to you people at a later date ok. I just hope that heaven can be on our side for once. Anyway, it like he's high (due to his beer and chicken wings -_-") and I'm down. And worse still, I'm freezing right here as it's raining heavily outside right now.

Haix! I'm super feeling insecure and the moral is pretty low for me right now and I know it's WRONG!

Com'on! Bad things would always come to an end no matter what. Pherhpas it's a blessing in disguise! (I hate that phrase actually cause he used it when I couldn't compete in Age Group) No matter what happens, having faith in myself and them is the most important thing right? All the shit we had gone through and stuff we had built up musn't collapse because of this. Who knows? It may not even happen at all right?

Sorry for that self- reassuring paragraph. I just need to get my mentality back to the right track again. I guess only the Lord can save me now...

Anyway, this may be something you may want to catch---> Sul getting beaten up! hahaha

xoxo