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Sunday, July 30, 2006
WOW! haha! First was Becky's 7 pages long of sms in the morning then this flood of messages at my tagboard! I'm not complaining but I feel super BLESSED at this moment =) xoxo Saturday, July 29, 2006 xoxo Friday, July 28, 2006 xoxo xoxo Thursday, July 27, 2006 xoxo Wednesday, July 26, 2006 xoxo Saturday, July 22, 2006 I think it's him. Maybe it's him afterall. The feeling is gone. Gone long ago already. Didn't bother to confirm if he's the one. At least he crossed my path once. It's good to look back once in a while but I believe we have to move on no matter what. If bad things don't come how couls things get better right? Nothing much... but do leave a tag k=) Hate it when the number is jumping so rapidly but the tagboard is empty! haha! xoxo Friday, July 21, 2006 Back to Sul being gossipy. haha! He totally like wanna dig our (jes, jas and me) secrets out on the car to Serangoon Gardens just now! haha! And that Kitson actually blurted it out la! Blehx! And that Sul ar... hopefully he can just forget it =S haha! I'm very certain judo is never going to end here for me. Qinqi's taking a 4 months break from now only =) There's just so many things that I've not learn and yet to discover yet! I still haven't win by a proper Ippon yet! haha! My journey is going to be continues in December I guess... PS: here are the links to the photos taken. http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2104000090 http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/great_shimu/my_photos xoxo Wednesday, July 19, 2006 wonderful yet mean babes who help me took pictures.. with Gary =) thanks meanie (despite the threats. blehx!) 20th is just tomorrow; a few hours away. My judo life in NYJC is going to end officially too. Part of me is excited and curious of what the J1 would be doing for us during training tomorrow but that's this HUGE part of me that never wants the day to come... I got a feeling that if everything gets to touchy tomorrow I'm going to cry =S haha! There's just too many beautiful memories I had with my gi, the dojo, my coaches and my team.... xoxo Sunday, July 16, 2006 xoxo xoxo Friday, July 14, 2006 xoxo Wednesday, July 12, 2006 xoxo xoxo Monday, July 10, 2006 will definitely miss him... finally got to see my side view *woot* =p nice card right? haha! he better LOVE it! tsktsk! Photo whoring session begins! *woot* Stupid, jealous, act-cute cockraoch... Blehx! Zzzz... Anyone has insecticide? Arggg! Someone, pls kill that Cockroach!! tsktsk! Okay, Sul followed our instructions and didn't rip the prezzie! hehe! He enjoys the messages too! hahaha! And the card; good that he appreciates it! hahaha! He ought to feel sorry that he can't stay! LOL! Actually he had another class after ours... Zzzz And that old uncle actually wants a birthday treat from US! Blehx! School reopening tomorrow already. Results are gonna be back. Haix! Math and Chemistry for tomorrow. Hopefully can do better in Chem this time round as for Math, a pass is good enough... Wednesday is just 2 days away. Press On! xoxo Saturday, July 08, 2006 xoxo Friday, July 07, 2006 5 more days to D-day! oh man! I almost can't fall asleep yesterday after thinking through bout all the injuries, trainings and competitions I had gone through these 2 years. It's pretty scary how the year passed so quickly. Last year at this time I was still super blur and unfarmiliar with the rules and regulations when I entered the dojo for my first ever judo match. And in just a few days time, I would be representing NYJC for the last time.... Part of my don't want the 12th to come cause soon after that we would be stepping down. I seriously don't want this journey to end so quickly. I guess it's like the only sports I have the passion for after all these years. There's simply so many things I haven't learn yet! So many things yet to be discovered... It's pretty ironic cause I do look forward to the 12th too. haha! It's the competition I'm been looking forward to since last year A' Division. I simply couldn't forgot the team spirit we had then. The moments when we cried after we lost to cjc and when we cried once again after winning rjc... The feeling is really beyond words... And I wanna experienced this all over again with YOU BABES =) I guess what Sul told me the other time really makes sense. Cause I was asking him who he wanted to put in the school team for the girls but in the end he said something like this... "It's who YOU want to put in your team; who YOU feel that you can TRUST & RELY ON. You all would be playing during that day not me." Bottom Line: I had made my choice and I have confident in you babes =) xoxo Wednesday, July 05, 2006 xoxo Monday, July 03, 2006 xoxo Sunday, July 02, 2006 xoxo Enough of me drooling over the guys =P tsktsk! Anyway... GO BRAZIL !!! xoxo
Heard that cheesecake is going to be informed on my participation on the C'ships. Duh! I'm so expecting a talk with her sometime soon. Zzzz! Sorry but cheesecake sometimes really gets me damn irritated and pissed. Oh man! I'm so getting an A for her subject! haha! Now I finally understand how Brandon got his motivation to ace his A & E maths in sec4! hahaha! He used to tell me how he wanted to show BD Wong he could get A1 for both maths without his help and stuff and I always couldn't understand why he felt that way...
Now I do! =)
Alright, I'm digressing...
Anyway, I'm real touched by the messages on my tagboard =)
I guess I really need someone to tell me that I can do it. It's gonna be a huge challange but I'm going all out for it. Really grateful for all the advices and encouragements I received from meanie, kitty, colleen, val, prc babes and even people who I don't know. haha!
And to sul and gary for giving me some information that I need on the training and C'ships =)
Of course I'ld inform you guys on the actual date on the C'ships beforehand! haha! Must try to come down then ar... cause I got this feeling that it's so going to be on the day right before Prelims. Zzzz!
Oh man! Please just change or review on the mangement uncles!
And also thanks to my dearest Jes for being so worried for me that I'ld made the wrong desicion. In case you have no clue, Jeslin was also chosen to take be part of the combine school team! But she rejected the offer due to her studies. She claimed that her 4 A' levels subjects are hugging on to her. Whatever girl! haha!
I actually got the dates mixed up. Sorry. Anyway, yup. It'd been a year since she left. Though the pain no longer hurts that much but I guess the scar remains- especially with her good friends and family.
It's werid cause she somehow came into my mind while I was watching Ghost Whisperer just now and jes reminded a while ago...
Anyway, just hope that she's doing fine wherever she is...
In any case you want to know if I'm still going for Pesta Sukan...
Yes, I am.
It's funny cause deep down I still can't make up my mind despite me giving it a nod already. I guess I'ld just see how is it by then when the schedule and everything is out. There's always my toes and my sucky results to back me up if I can't take the pressure anymore.
Ok, I sound damn irresponsible and a greedy ass but I just can't afford to miss any chances and take any risks, so compromising everything is the best =)
Just when I'm ready to concentrate and give my heart to my tutorials and notes the news suddenly came. In case your wondering what I'm ranting all about, it's the annual Judo Pesta Sukan Championships I'm talking about. It's supposed to be pretty prestigious and stuff. Sul and Cheryl took part in it before and it's a invitational competition. There's like people from other clubs, countries and those national players who would be taking part in it too.
Gosh. Save me! It's tempting. The offer is real tempting and there's only 3 combined trainings. But the championships is right smack before my Prelims. Duh! And I'm so clueless about what's the schedule for the combined training is like. Okay, according to Gary it's 2 hours. He played for it last year and he's going for this year one too.
This is so fustrating. I hate experiencing internal conflicts. This sucks.
I know there would be still chances in uni to participate but what if I don't? What if it's the first and last Pesta Sukan I'm ever going to?
And what if I can't have the self discipline to mug?
I'm greedy. I want to participate in it and want to ace in my Prelims, but can I?
There's nothing to look forward to after the packed school hours. Ok. I'm currently experiencing the withdrawal symptoms right now...Zzzz!
I miss the MPR. I miss the dojo. I miss my gi & my green belt. I miss my harai goshi. I miss Sul & the team. I miss the trainings. I miss Judo.
It's going to be a tough 4 months from now and I can't wait for it to be over...
Once again...
Happy Birthday Cheryl! 
during last year handover...
Wished her through sms in the afternoon =)
Really miss having her around. She's a really nice coach...
Oh man! I really look so boyish in that picture! Short hair and stuff; typing my yellow belt around my waist, etc. haha! Noobie! But I enjoyed being a noob too! haha! Expectation of a noob is always quite low and there's always a great sense of achievement surpassing that standard =)
(this is going to be a LONG entry... hehe)
Thank you everyone who has made my ny judo life so meaningful, beautiful and wonderful =)
Today finally marks the official end of my ny judo life. I know it's not going to end here but it's just that I'm no longer representing Team NYJC anymore. Stepped down already. No more "Soo Qin Qi from NYJC" anymore....
Judo has really played an important part in my JC life. A large part actually. I've to admit, I'm more attached and closer to you guys than my CT. The time I'd committed is one good reason why...
I could still remember the first time I ever stepped into the MPR and the dojo. It's a "wow!" feeling. Everything seems so cool (and it is still now) and amazing. Coach Tan and Cheryl (our ex-coach) were the first 2 coaches I met. Coach Tan's friendliness and Cheryl's encouraging words made me really feel great even though I can't do a SIMPLE FORWARD ROLL properly! haha! I was so clumsy and silly! Total noob! hahaha!
Saw Sul only on the 2nd training and wondered who's this pretty good looking guy. haha! Thought he a temporary coach only to realise he ain't and that made jeslin and me real excited! haha! Ben's constant laming and crapping and the other seniors friendliness made me more determine to be part of them.
I don't know why I thought that way but then, I really want to catch up up with those first 3 months J1 judokas and surpass them. haha! Silly thinking right? From 2 distinct cliques ( before and after 1st 3 months), we have become 1 in the end =) The constant MSN mass chattings did work to a certain extent I guess! hahaha!
I guess I'm pretty blessed. Really blessed in fact. To have Cheryl as my direct mentor from the start kinda feel bad as she's always coaching me alone only =X Being part of the team as the only J1 then. Bringing the team and school glory then was really great. It's the first time I ever felt that way....
J1 year was carefree and fun. Trained and trained. Sadly, Cheryl had to leave due to her studies. I guess that's why Sul become closer to us. The introduction to Budo was great. Never know such judo club exsist till Sul brought us there. It's great knowing that there're other people who share the same passion with you and are training as young as 5! We were real shy with them at first but as time passed, I guess we hit off pretty well =)
J2 life is no doubt stressful but coming to trainings always cheer me up. haha!
The various competitions had broaden my thoughts and sights. Being being to win in competitions is like my effort being paid off and seeing the fruit of my labour. Friends I had made from various schools through compeitions and external trainings are great too =)
Just wanna say some stuff to some people who played an important role in my 1 year plus judo life in NYJC...
To Sul: 
A big big THANK YOU! You've been more than a coach me I think. More like a brother cum mentor already. haha! You never have that air around you or act that way. Really enjoy your story telling sessions in between trainings and on MSN =) haha! (Sul's gossipy too ok! LOL! More story on that later...) Anyway, thanks for believing and having faith in me that I could wack those brown belters =) I guess trainings in Budo did helped to build the rapport among many of us and it helps. All the best with the training with the Prince! haha! Don't miss us too much!
To EXCO 2005- 2006: 
Thanks. Really really appreciate it guys and babes! I totally enjoyed working with ya. You people never fails me despite the tight schedule and time frame I gave you. You people have been a lovely bunch. Holding the role as Captain was no joke. Though lot's of people expected it, the responsibilty and uplifting the role as Captain was there. Thank you for the faith and trust you people have in me. =)
To Jiemeis: 
Though we were formed only this year but I really treassure the time we spent together. The gossip sessions were great! haha! Never fails to get me high and anutie-like! hahaha! I guess it's the quality time we spent together and not how long it was formed =)
I know this friendship won't stop right here. I got faith in everyone of you. Must meet up more often ok. Having you people around really make training more fun and enjoyable. *muahx*
To Girls' Team: You babes rock my world! I know the results were depressing and I was depressed for over a long period of time. But thanks for being there and sharing the woes with me. I guess the friendship and trust we had built among ourselves make me real touched. It's realy great being part of the team with you babes and going through everything with ya=) Rock on babes!
To J1s:
Thanks for the catus and the card. You've been very nice juniors =) Must train hard ok. Know that the number is shrinking and it's pretty bad but hold on together ya? Encourage each other on. Have faith and trust in one another. Press on!
Stupid stupid stupid batteries!
Most of the photos are pretty blur. Guess it's the incorrect function button thing. ZZzzz...
Anyway, went with Kitty and Meanie to the Finals at Yio Chu Kang a while ago. Miss the C' Division matches. The place was so crowded with people from HCI, NYGC and the Rafflesians. It's like the fight against the elite schools. -_-" Found the AES and BPSS judokas and hang around with them =)
Some of the matches were really cool and neat! Like the B' Division Boys 1st player. He's really fast; movement super agile. Plus this guy who did this flying somersaut in the air to prevent himself from being slammed! *woot*
But I must say the A' Division Girls' match was quite disappointing. It's either the players won by Koka (lowest point) or due the Shido (foul) that her opponent got. Somemore the hot favourites didn't lift up to the expectations. Raffles won in the end with Bala's perfect Ippon. haha! She's no doubt the PILAR of rjc.
This year results I must say is pretty surprising. Lots of the hot favourites didn't manage to remain in their positions. Example is the HCI Girls who lost their Champion titles after 4 consecutive years. And also the rising of HSS C' Division Girls' Team. The dojo is just full of surprises.
Intended to take more pictures today with some of the other schools judokas and my dear jiemeis who accompanied me all the way to the stadium to collect my trophy. But my batteries!!!! Arghhh!!! Idiot. Didn't manage to take a picture with Nicola in the end. She and her team mates were sobbing away. Somehow, I can relate her feelings in me. It's like the world is crashing down on you and there's nothing you can do about it...
Take care girl...
Can spot me? The only one in brown.. haix!
blur picture of me receiving the trophy...
hamster(bps) and me!
with vickie (RJ Captain and my fellow opponent)! congrates to RJ Girls' Team =)
there seem to be someone missing... HmM...
OH! here they are.. in they're own world~ LOL!
oh gosh! pls stop trying to act seductive! haha! especially weixian! =X
bad footage. thanks to the one and only jeslin! *woot* okay, now even the COW is trying to seduce us...-_-"
okok! you guys looks seductive alright! hahaha! Rock on! =)
*shake shake* An Earthquake! Blehx! tsktsk!
unglam jes again... tsktsk! 
oh pls kitty! stop it! you can nv be like them! haha!
20th is just 4 days from now...
Seriously speaking I never want 20th to come. Not that I yearn to be the captain or whatsoever, it's just my life in ny judo had brought me lots of wonderful and incredible memories. It just felt weird that we're talking about the Thursday training just now but I'm just not part of it. Training has been something I look forward to when the day is really bad and when I'm down. It just never fails to brighten up my day especially with the company of those lovely babes, jiemeis and sul's story telling & bitching sessions...
Part of me is just going to be gone when 20th comes...
Finally got the courage to talk to him after the competition. He's ain't angry or disappointed with us but he's "disappointed in the outcome". But thank god bps got 3rd in all divisions so I guess it somehow made me feel a little bit better. At least bps got something back in the end...
Just came back from the sinseh again. Yesterday one was crap. The sinseh I just went is really good. I never even told him about my previous sprain on my ankle and he can see it! (other than the dislocated and sprain toes) Should have taken a picture of my swollen foot before he wrapped it up for me =X
Didn't know it's that painful until he rubbed and twisted my ankle and toe. Gosh! Ya, I screamed and cried again. Screamed somemore when he placed the needles on the swollen and bruised part. Zzzz... it's freaking painful la! But that sinseh is pretty humerous =)
Hopefully it'll heal fast...
sorry team. sorry fellow judokas. sorry nyjcains.
and most importantly, sorry sul.
my heart is bleeding and feeling so numb now. the decision i had made was costly and i ought to be responsible for it. i guess that explains why i got the dislocated toe. and great, it's swollen and bruised now.
i just can't face him after the match. not even when he helped me to straighten back the bone. i just feel i owe him a big one; and the entire team too. his call made me even worse after that. haix. and what's even better is that he never replied my message which means he really is very very disappointed. can actually sense it when i was about to play with the cj girl during the last match. his silence just killled me.
the trophy for the individual match that i'ld be getting on the 19th seems meaningless for me at this point. i would just sacrifice it for the team trophies if it's possible...
the teams had played great today actually. can see that they give their best shot at it. but the results are just not what we desire for...
anyway, it's over. everything is over. my judo life in nyjc is officially over for me.
Had a busy day today but it's quite fruitful =) Meanie, Jes and Kristal came over to my place in the late morning to do the cards and gifts for Coach Tan and Sul. Intended to watch movie as we do the stuff but in the end we were too preoccupied with the card and booklet that we didn't really watch the any movie at all expcet La Bi Xiao Xin!
hahaha! Hopefully Sul would like that gift! hehehe! Cause we actually gave him this personlised mug and we wrapped it with newspaper. Then we wrote very lame and corny stuff on every layer such as "RIP ME BABAY! RIP ME!" hahahaha! Hope he enjoys tearing off the layers of newspaper! =p And that card we did for him; we actually used our FINGERS to paint the poster colours on it! haha! (my brother took all the brushes to school today as he had art class..)
Though it's our officially last training today but it doesn't look as if it's the last cause there's still the Handover on 20th and I'm sure bound to go and train =) hehe! But no matter what, it's the LAST training for our dearest Coach Tan. He's like retiring from the Judo scene from today onwards. He said he's more bound to get more injuries these days and his old...
I will really miss him a lot...
He's such a nice coach. I can still remember the first day I stepped into the MPR and this saw this Coach that's very nice and caring towards all of us. Not forgeting his cakes that he will always bring for any special occasion and of course, his Pizza Hut treats. It's because of him that's why we always frequent Pizza Hut. That place sure reminds me of him =) And today just before he left us, he passed Val and me like $300 for our Pizza Hut treat after Wednesday championships! Oh man! I'm super touched and surprised by his gestures...
Germany vs Portugal!
Hopefully Portugal wins. Germany is down with so many players! We shall know the result in a few hours time... tsktsk!
Went gyming this morning and guess who I saw? Maomao! haha! That zhss 4e2-04 yenxian! Quite surprised to see him there. He looks the same though. haha! He looked stunned when he saw me. haha! Guess he can't recognise me. hehe! =)
And there's more retail therapy today! *woot* Bought a Mango and Iora blouse =) I simply love retail therapy! haha! Oh man! This is so bimbotic but who cares. Blehx! Anyway, I saw this pretty neat Puma jacket at Stadium. Green and white. Don't really know whether to get it a not cause I already have my Reebok jacket and I still love it of course. Furthermore that Puma one cost $78. Hmmm... maybe should think about it again. But it's really nice though =P
Made some discoveriesa while ago with meanie. We were like PI for God sake! haha! That's the result of "nothing better do do". haha!
Anyway, I guess Boss can make it to see us on the 12th afterall.
No calls + No messages = Safe
Super scary! I can't imagine if I was there still watching the TV! You can jolly well visit me in the hospital today I tell ya. And that means no competition for me! Oh my! Is this some sort of message I'm supposed to get? haha!
Anyway, Exams are FINALLY OFFICIALLY OVER for me! I know I'm super wols about it when majority of the school population had finished theirs on Thursday or Wednesday. It feels great to get the burden off... for a moment at least. tsktsk!
Today's Sports Carnival kinda sucks. haha! I would have pon it if not because of the inter-cca relay! Damn. I guess only the commentators are high. hahaha! I guess the run was pretty alright considering that we never train at all and managed to get 4th. haha! As what Yunpeng said "Not last can already!" hahaha! Totally agree. But Zhanhua looked rather unhappy about the result =S Scary.
So retail therapy started today too! ^^ Didn't went to Hereen with meanie and co cause it's my dearest Mummy's Birthday today too! haha! So decided to shop around with her. The trip to F.O.S. was super disappointing. There's nothing eye-catching or nice at all. Zzzz....
In the end we headed to Orchard and she wanted to go Tangs. Sadly she didnt see anything she want but I finally got myself a blue pair of shades! *woot* =)
Accompanied her to her Dharma class in the evening. Seriously, I almost fell asleep halfway through the class =p
Surprised my mom with the Swensan's ice-cream cake and her favourite durian puffs from Prima Deli proudly spnsored from my Daddy! hahaha!
By now I guess almost everyone should now that Germany is OUT!!!
Hooray! hahaha! Not that's I'm a supporter of Italy or whatsoever, it's just that I can't stand their arrogance and attitude. Shoo! hehe!
Portugual is playing later. Hope everything would be fine especially when C. Ronaldo and Figo are injured. But France is down with so many yellow cards too! haha! I have to proclaim that I'm not actually a real supporter of Portugual. I'm still 100% loyal to Brazil (they're still the best^^). It's just that among the top4 Porttugal is more likable. hahaha!
7 MORE DAYS to National School! Oh man! Exams are not even over for me yet and the competition is only days away! Boohoohoo! Buck up people! After preparation for almost 1 year we can do it! =)
*I can't wait to put on my gi again ^^*
I guess the news would be make known to you guys tommorrow. Yup. The reason why I was so so upset and shocked the other time. Haix! Hopefully he's able to postpone the trip there.
*crossing my fingers*
How can that be?! My dear Brazil has lost?! Oh man! This sucks totally!
No Brazil + No Argentina= Boring & Crappiness!
( I realised I started to like making up dumd equations! hahaha!) It's like 4 euro countries left. Zzzz... What the heck! I hate that fact. Especially when it's on European soil that they are playing now. Great. Those Europeans can have something to boost about again. -_-"
I guess those who betted yesterday matches lost quite a bit. Heard that Chee Lin's friend actually lost $1000 due to Brazil's lost! =S
Haix! Just hope some miracle can happen and bring Protugal (the only euro country I support) to the finals....
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Current...
Mood: excited (^^Portugal won!), tired (it's late) and worried (haven't finish my revision!)
Taste: for food or wad?
Clothes: grey tee with fbt shorts
Desktop: judo team @ day-camp 2006 =)
Toenail colour: orange with glitter but is kinda faded already. don't bother to remove or do anything to it now.. hehe!
Time: 2.28am
Surroundings: my bedroom and i'm so tempted to sleep now!
Annoyance: I'm getting super distracted!!! I need to get back to my notes!!!! Hell! I'm doom fot mid-years!
Thoughts: I need to get back to my biodiversity after this.. =X
First...
Best Friend: zhi juan
Crush: erm.. this good friend from my primary school? hahaha!
Music: think some BSB song?
Last...
Crush: Dars chocolate =PCigarette: never wld I touch that! Yikes!Drink: Milo..had one mouth of it from my brother =P
Movie: Benchwarmers with the PRC at PS! It's a crappy show! haha! But it definitely makes you laugh and just relax=)
Phone call: Mummy to remind me to ask quan to study -_-"
CD played: Lin Jun Jie's Cao Cao
Song played: erm.. think it's Buttons from Pussy Cat Dolls... nice song btw! PCD are hot in that MV!
Have you ever...
Dated one of your best friends: nope...never dated k! =S
Broken the law: Shhh... yes!
Been arrested: *shake head*
Been on TV: I'm pretty low profile so it's no.. haha!
Kissed someone you dont know: never!
5 things you are wearing: pretty dumb lehx this question... specs, ear-rings, tee, shorts, hairband
4 things you did today: mug, lunch, mug, dinner, online
3 things you can hear right now: my air-con, typing of the keyboard and my mind telling me to sleep...
1 thing you do when you are bored: go gym? hahaha! or shopping alone! it's pretty fun to shop alone in case you never try b4! hahaha~ cause you can take all the time you want to try on the clothes! tsktsk!
Portugal won !!!
And I love that photographer who helped Yahoo! to get the photos uploaded there. Why? Cause there's tons of Cristiano Ronaldo pictures!
hahaha! Anyway, there's no kick in that game. It's another match that's won by penalty shots.
No Rooney + No Beckham + No Owen = No England
Brazil's match coming up in another hour! They look good and pretty in form till now. Hopefully they can kick some butts later =) Oh ya, in any case you have no idea who's Kaka is (Jeslin is one who still dun have any idea -_-") Here's some pictures of him! He's super hot. 
